Following God’s Call

Welcome to my blog! Believe it or not, this blog has been over two years in the making. It all started with a phone conversation with my sister. And ended with me deciding to write a blog. I had also taken on two other major career goals in two different fields, one I knew and one that was new. I was overwhelmed and kept worrying about doing things perfectly.

I researched all the best practices in blogging, the best tools, the most popular content. I stressed over what I would say. It was just too much to process, and I shut down. A year went by and the same thing happened. I panicked, and I stopped before I started.

So here I am, finally, over two years later, doing it. I’m writing my first blog post. You might wonder what is different this time. I can assure you that my life has not slowed down or gotten any less complicated. Since the first desire to start the blog two years ago, I have had two more babies to bring my family to having 4 children under the age of 5. I started homeschooling our oldest child and will begin homeschooling my second child next week. We moved to a new house. I learned how to raise chickens and the list goes on. The change wasn’t that I suddenly overcame all of my OCD and anxiety issues. I didn’t suddenly have an epiphany that showed me all the perfect answers to my questions.

No, the change came from simply deciding to do it. Deciding to step out in faith and do the scary thing that God called me to do. From the beginning of this process, I heard God’s call to use the gift of writing He gave me to be a blessing to others. And for two years, I foolishly made it about myself. I worried about being good enough on my own merit, forgetting that the one who called me is the one who gifted me. I was like Moses, making excuses about how I couldn’t be perfect enough for the task. I was never called to be perfect, neither were you. We are simply called to live and walk in faith. He had already provided what I needed, and He is also faithful to His promises to sustain those who are working for His kingdom. If I stayed in the mindset of relying on me to be a blogger and a writer, then none of this would probably ever happen. It is by leaning into God that I can use the gifts He gave me, and I am praying over this entire process, I continue to follow His lead.